Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Getting It Off My Chest

I am usually careful to be cryptic in my blog posts. I don't want to reveal too much of myself , so I tend to err on the side of optimism and light. Well, right now, I'm in a space in my life where I feel there is power in articulating my anger and dissatisfaction...if only to place it behind me and move forward.
I like lists, so I thought I'd make one.

Reasons I'm Angry:
  • I'm angry that my heart was broken.
  • I'm angry that I invested in a "we" when I should have been looking out for me.
  • I'm angry that I have no fixed address yet.
  • I'm angry that my body shut down in the face of stress and anxiety and as a result, my health has been compromised.
  • I'm angry I have to commit time and energy and money to healing.
And here's another list: 
  • I celebrate my resilience and perseverance.
  • I celebrate and am very thankful for my friends...actually... here, they are my family who support and care for me.
  • I celebrate the fact that I have two big creative theatrical projects I can dive into.
  • I celebrate my teaching job, which gives me joy and provides me with good money.
  • I'm thankful for a great Chinese Medicine Doctor.
  • I celebrate the lesson of patience.
  • I celebrate the potential in my present and my future. I'm calling in good things.
Be Free

1 comment:

K. van der Leeden said...

Dear Paola!

Just went through my "favorites", trying to clean up the list of cyber escapes, reminiscent of my past...when I came across this post of yours! A beautiful piece of your mind....honest, brave, both strong and vulnerable at the same time and so familiar to me! Thank you for that :)
Right about now I would love to have some tea with you, sister!
Much love xo
K
PS: Needless to say that your blog is one of my favorite favorites. It stays!